Never can say goodbye

Welcome to my theme song...how awesome is the dancing in this video?

Himself IM'd me a couple days ago. I had made myself visible to him but I was completely shocked that he said hi, since he said that he would respect my decision to end things and wouldn't contact me. Honestly, I just wanted him to see my face there if he logged in (yeah, I know, warped...). Maybe he took my visiblity as an opening, I don't know. It was just a short "hi, how are you," catching up conversation. At the end he said that he misses me and said "don't be a stranger."

I want so badly to be able to be his friend, since that's what he needs right now. I don't know if I can. I feel so strongly that our story isn't over but I don't know how to go forward from here. I'm trying to not think about it too much (HA!!) and just let it unfold, trying to listen to the little God voice in my head.

Right now, I am just glad that he misses me enough that he initiated a conversation.